I’m beginning to realise that we are just chemical creations with the notion of consciousness. The doctors have been trying out different levels of medication on me to control my anaemia caused by excess bleeding. It’s taken a while but I’m now near normal in terms of my iron levels, and my, what a delightful surprise it was when I reached this stage.
It only happened slowly, the dizzy, spaced chaoticness. It was a slow descent into being unwell that I just put down to PMT. But it was more than that, it was anaemia that I’d never previously experienced because I’d never lost that much blood before. It wasn’t like normal sickness when you know you have the flu and I suppose that was why I was left so frustrated, angry and unable to take action quick enough. My body and brain had been hijacked. It was only when the doctor suggested that I may need a blood transfusion that the reality hit me. No amount of coffee would restore my usually alert and active self.
Blood transfusions to me have always been for others, those on their death beds or so desperately ill that it was a last resort. How on earth could it be applied to me? Yes, I was tired and a bit spaced, but was I really at that stage? The doctor and I settled on an intermediary. I would increase my drugs intake and get my blood checked again a few weeks later to decide upon the next course of action. I am currently a pill popper, a druggie, but not in the recreational sense.
It was only at the start of this week that I actually stabalised. I am so relieved that I have my brain back, but not only that, I had enough energy to go for a run! It took me 30 minutes to run 3.5km when in the past I would have managed 8km or 5miles in 43 minutes. It’s been the first time this year that I was able to properly exercise! It was as horrible as I remembered and I can’t wait to do it again on a regular basis. After all, I’d like to fit back into most of the clothes in my wardrobe. YAY to modern medicine and prescription drugs!
In case you were wondering, symptoms of anaemia can include:
- Pale or yellowish skin
- Irregular heartbeats
- Shortness of breath
- Dizziness or lightheadedness
- Chest pain
- Cold hands and feet
- Hearing ringing, buzzing or hissing noises inside your head (tinnitus)
- Food tasting strange
- Feeling itchy
- A sore tongue
- Hair loss – you notice more hair coming out when brushing or washing it
- Wanting to eat non-food items, such as paper or ice (pica)
- Finding it hard to swallow (dysphagia)
- Painful open sores (ulcers) in the corners of your mouth